i sat through catholic initiatory classes

 i sat through catholic initiatory classes 

i liked the people 

      i liked the alcohol

i saw the red rings wormed worn extended 

    house seat movie watching auto pilet 

 but grad school finger type one after the other 

equal parts assembly line a new fart assemly line fat cow

only we are the ones

get to eat cows 

the older i get i realize the scene and music i wanted when i was smelling

was just like the cow rows they now spray for in rowed cow lines 

to eat from 

the music like capitalism has winners and losers 

                             pastor could have been  A rock     Star

turned horny pill high           initiatory classes amarican christian nazi 

fall from drop pill face starting out         polished cow shit compact mask 

so that it can dance into the lower fronted in freedom face staying as alwasy 

miss   spelt  constant face mask

                               and that was the thurst momenst into the 

cath o     lic

                   class i sat through 

just like the thrusting christian babtized cow rows crow massed 

winged connection i wazed raized innnn

                                                     the thought of secret book shelves 

knowledge only offered to too        tooed

                  red rubied ring wearing lamb hooved shepards wooden spikes   

wielding casual sipping the sheeps teets

                                   in likable connection 

be a kkk  unidirectional forget full of know not nowing 

know now a real connection with access to the past 

            remain forget    full of the past to so to join

thurst in realtime wht 

time is it anywasy

a cow pre      pry

                         catholic 

why wood 
God need just one thing

gold     how would gold be usefull when 

a Father 

           working The fields     to feed his family 

to exstend us all

                           turned into a 

i sat through catholic initiatory classes for a couple of times

              then   ended up just  

being better      sleeping in and maybe making eggs and sausage 

in my cast iron pan trustfull nonstic as i have babied my one thing 

with constant towels of oil and pre birthed birds bacon 

sausage, 

ny strips        ribEyes

                                        tea coffee    

watching youtube video games and thingKing about catholic 

     lieBrareese       

i could be browsing

with red ring and platic cut in hand tree fingers deep 

sniffing dividing            Seeing the new breed of cows sitting 

through catholic initiatory classes       

"it's ok, we like good minds too," He said

why do godless pigs drown all of us on their way to escape death?

 the first person i knew died 20 years ago

they happen to have a bunch of things the rest of the people i knew

didn't 

their family let all of us into the house they owned

to take what they wanted from it

i remember walking into the house looking at all the things 

there where alot of people there browsing 

i looked at the surviving family 

they took a glance at the newly arriving vultures 

my first thought was 

                 well why would you invite us all here in the first place?

being a small child i grazed within the bird faucet pouring into the wind flapping low and high 

some birds like to see the edge the ones who stick out 

most whom dejour 

                                     others flock bodied wing pouring into the wind 

wings wouldn't be wings without well the meaning of wings

        i migrated into a room with book shelves lining it

i knew this was the place 

the smell of it

the closed order of it 

it being not it but many

                                         i unfortunately didn't know yet 

what was what when it comes to books and rooms lined with them

just the first of it 

being young and part of the bird faucet pouring 

unfortunately into a selfish pig sty 

bound         so that pigs can snort fertile ground hard 

so to mirror the the thing

                          only it not them now

just the blinded ones

                                                while they freely watch in wine tasting 

pretension while not knowing anything about wine and

tasting it

                     as i passed all the spines knowing nothing 

i passed them all

suddenly 

breaking me from the flock bodied wing of the winos drinking but not tasting

                   a sound and other bodied form broke me 

from my sobriety hooch uni-dimensions of wing flock

like a collard pet trained from birth with collar now without collar

following good boy

                  the voice staining my memory 

"A first addition 

Emily Dickons"

i knew i had lost again

back to the flock bodied wing shaping the wind as it is 

there in the house invited judged and labeled  while invited

 "whats there?" radiohead

"mission makes you look pretty ugly"

"from a great hight"

"rain down"

And honesty i don't remember anything else after that 

their hands

 my fingers have beeeeen their conquering\

                 next is them.  and now it is them as well

them have this new thing iin.  mouth and butt

it is them righ this moment 

and as they them 

                                   it is them.       for theming while they 

theming in theying it

is them      as they they and they them 

they will they and they will them 

then and only now and then they it they 

and will they them

once moor in too the deep

 the wrong thing has reached out

    but it is in

       to all of us

                           see them     si

  see    

C            they wood grow fawlc    wood

at every moove    it isnt god it is them

to see what is what and the to stay up late 

iin Competition 

waht was once a dead moment they have gift to 

the oath they 

                                          took

   

        it has a NEW wield

to stab what was oneS them not is them As 

but a tool to sink once more into the deep

stay put

Maybe everyone stay put

So that the winners can relax.

Id to take advantage

Id take advantage of you 

as a being 

But Id have to say it right now

Not to turn the tide but to see you roll from what you where to what you are now that I have made you

         them royal flex feel right to conquering 

Sight to the reward 

     In my loss

In you are win

In gosh

      In there isn't a 4th thing

Only in threes 

                    As you walk winning            living the win

Away free 

                  Ly.           I was listening to Radiohead 

You a 2pok 

                    And it would care about how he spelt it

         Who needs to spell when your winning

    Him death no longer 

Living the win you 

                                      It                  why would words mean nothing as you lie     me in belief a win

As you win in 

                                Rotted corpse sound

Nothing 

               What a game      a spider 

When the leaf engine gold love attains

    Majic without word

Or religion 

           Or the religion you career 

Or fake

             Or god forbid actually 

With smile broke back exhale

    Have real vains feulling leaf through light 

A breath in is difficult 

                        When majic can only difficult 

An oppont   

In battle

 

   Leaf vain vale working sence 

            A single ameba 

Thought a single ameba            could

                     Meme hard as conservatives

Meme these days

             How would a claw 

Redifine itself as a loving hand 

                                   Touched in dark sex love

                When eating you 

Walking away for the win? 

                                       

medicine

 i feel asleep once with a pill

             it didn't wake me up 

because thats the pill

for the real i should have      yet  its 

                   what i could only describe as the senses made to

                             stay sleeping

and when i wake up to pee        its let me hang myself to dry 

upon the already made hooks        husbanded by also pilled 

rotted corpses             jostling     for         disappearing acts of reality 

so that their lies can symbol top hat      the constitution of      music

                                                    if only chemistry acted as a child lock 

on the pill bottle i ritually must thumb    

                   and the husband         will farm            not water

fruit or                    vaccine                  that has and will always be taken care of

                    no its         action                        make in wrong        they can make

          you          

so that they can have space

                        to continue doing the fill now with wrong for space to fill now

with wrong for space

                                                      a pill bottle   they     thumb ritual 

as i do      regrettably